♥ Suivez votre cœur,

OH HIIIIII

2012-01-26T23:43:00.005+08:00

22JAN2012
Reunion Dinner !!
AIYO CUTE BABY CUZZIE ♥

14JAN2012

MBK

Face F RED

13JAN2012

SHOPPING WITH YZ AT TOWN.

SUPPPPPZZZZ HIIIIIIII !

Haven't been blogging regularly. I am god damn LAZY. ):

I can just lay on my bed the whole day doing nothing. x.x

kayyyyy... i need to blog more frequently. I want to. & I will :D hehe

OH.YA. I AM SELLING MY INSTAX MINI 25 POLARIOD CAMERA! (PLAIN WHITE)

COZ I GOT MYSELF A HELLOKITTY ONE.

INTERESTED PLZZZZ EMAIL ME @ xueqiloves-@hotmail.com OR facebook message me / twitter dm me !!!

& I'LL BE SELLING MY CLOTHES AT SCAPE FLEA MARKET THIS SUNDAY! SO EGGCITED. ^_^

Shall spam pixx sooon! :D

&&&& DID I MENTION ABOUT MY OLVL RESULTT??! I CAN APPLY FOR POLY THIS TIME ROUND!! YAY!

Ya laaaa, my results like shit but im happy enough that i can go into a poly. :)

My posting result will be out on Monday 30Jan2012 8am.

I'll work harder this time rounddddd.

TOODLES. PROMIZEE TO BLOGG SOOONNZZZ ! ♥

JULIA IS 18

2012-01-16T18:49:00.012+08:00

HAHA AT DARYL.

i love my friend.

i love how we can repeat " Long long time ago, there was a high high mountain, on a high high mountain, there was an old old monk, and the old old monk said...... LONG LONG TIME AGO, there was a high high mountain ~~~~ " hahahahaha

I might not have the most handsome/pretty bunch of friends. But i swear they are the fun-nest (lol) and craziest people i ever met. ^^ & they had always been there. ♥

AGAIN HAPPY 18 JURIA ME LOVE U MUCHIE ! ^^

& I CANT WAIT TO TURN LEGAL.

2012

2012-01-03T14:26:00.020+08:00

Hello, people. I haven't had a proper post for a very long time.
It's either just pictures ( maybe w a few sentences ) or just a paragraph of me ranting.
Yes, 2012 just started. So far, it's pretty boring. Lol.

2011 was not really a good year. but i definitely had become much more stronger.
I lost friends, i made new friends. I hated more bitches. Saw how fake people can get.
How boys can hurt you, lie to you, over and over again. & How some boys can just love you & asking for nothing in return. & Still many girls who love the wrong guy. ( maybe i am 1 of those ) That's why people say love is blind. Haha. Well, i definitely have regrets but this year im gon' live with no regrets. My life is gon' be awesome. Can't wait for my birthday. Can't wait to turn legal.

I am getting my results in 6days time. Im so fucking nervous. How i wish when the results are flying back from cambridge, the plane crash or something. Lol. okk..... like i said, i'll be more than happy to be able to enter a poly. Be it RP or anything. I'll be happy. & i gon' work hard in poly. ( i always say the same thing. Lol. )

okay.. i'll blog agn probably this coming weekend ? Julia's 18th Birthday Chalet! I can't wait. Definitely gon' be funnnn. heh heh.

Noww...... some flashbackk.

First time going to a pub... getting kind of tipsy there. I was a bad drinker. I am still a bad drinker. LOL. I am so fatttt. can look at my last pic. Double Chin. LOL.

I had a child. So cute. Almost 1 year old now.
Hahahahaaha. JUST KIDDING. That's my baby cousin.

Claudia's Birthday. With the most beautiful cake . haha!

Ulrika's Birthday.

Crazily fun chalet w flends.

Daryl's Birthdayyyyy

Baking and night picnic with the girls. ♥

town with yunzhao

Made new friend, sabrina. :) ( most right )

picnic

NDP !!

wenning's birthday.

USS!!!!!!!!!!!!

THE REST SHOULD BE THE RECENT PHOTOS I UPLOADED :)

HEHE HOPE EVERYONE GON' HAVE AN AWSOME YEAR AHEAD !!

Last of 2011

2012-01-01T18:33:00.007+08:00

30DEC2011

24DEC2011

23DEC2011
CELLGROUP <3

OH LAST DAY OF 2011 I WENT FISHING & CAUGHT A SUPER BIG FISH ^^ will upload more photos soooooooooon ;D
& HAPPY 2012 !!!!!! THIS YEAR GON' BE AWESOME!!

ohya, pray for japan! :)

Life

2011-12-24T00:40:00.001+08:00

Im really happy with everything now. I've got awesome friends. Yea, like julia, yunzhao, jingwen, yuwen, mich... & maybe a few more? But this few are always the one listening to my problems. Although i do have problems, but im happy. The only thing that idk what to do is with the hatred fucking me upside down.. Those bitches and sluts. i cant forgive, neither can i forget. & it feels like im going crazy. :( what to do...........

emotions

2011-12-22T01:15:00.001+08:00

if you know all this emotions. if you know how i actually feel. who will actually understand. fml k goodnight.

Hatred

2011-12-20T13:30:00.006+08:00

Ever had the feeling of hating someone so much? Even their name irritates you?
Even when you tried not to. & act as if nothing had happened, yet you still couldn't bring yourself not to hate them.
Ever had that feeling of not wanting someone yet you doesn't want them to have anyone else as well?
Ever tried to forgive someone yet you can't even forget what they had done?
And.. have you ever wonder.. if you can forgive, without forgetting.
Ever wanted to had revenge on someone who hurt you so badly?

Yet you love them too much to hurt them as well...

& how they claimed that they regretted, & would want to spend the rest of their life with you..

yet that's not what you feel anymore. Coz you gave your all yet what you get back was hurt, tears & a broken heart. You're afraid & you don't wan try anymore.. yet you can't let go.

& a lil' faith keeps hanging on. & a part of you thought that.. " maybe this time it will all work out "

& till a point.. all you want is to be happy. ( how sad is it ) you don't wan care anymore, you just want to be happy. with them or without them, you just wna live every single day happily.

Doing things that you love and being with friends who love you, be there for you, cheer you up, do crazy thing with you.

i just need to know if someone is with me.... cause it hurts so bad to not know what to do.

to give up or to hold on. & not know if their sweetness, love, care are real or not.

All my Life

2011-12-18T21:52:00.015+08:00

15Dec2011

13Dec2011

10Dec2011

ours

2011-12-14T23:35:00.003+08:00

Plz don't suffocate me. I'm trying my best already. i need trust if not i don't think i'll be able to make it.

*******************

Haven't been using my computer. So no pictures. I'm using my new MacBook Pro my uncle bought for me. hehe. So.. maybe i'll upload pictures on Don's Birthday BBQ & ytd town with yunzhao tmr or this coming weekend :)

Goodnight babies <3

Penang

2011-12-11T20:33:00.004+08:00

I am so lazy to upload all the pictures. Not much pictures anyway.
Had much fun at Penang. 1 week wasn't enough ):
Met Haber the last 2days. He drove us to the beach. & went to his to sister house, he drove me home and stuff :D hehe.
He knew him since young & it feels like he is my cousin. anw, he always tell his friends im his cousin too. LOL.

Yesterday celebrate Don's birthday! Shall upload pictures sooon :D
yep, will blog about it soooon :) probably tmr or smth :)

toooodles!!! <3

Trust

2011-12-09T11:57:00.005+08:00

I am back from Penang.. like 3days ago?
Will blog about it soon :)

This mixed feelings.. so indescribable.

Friends; when we're young, when we're unhappy with on another all we does/say was " don't friend you already "
Now? "Friends" backstabb each other. We no longer can trust anyone. Sometimes not even the closest one. It's like we're bound to get hurt.
I always think/wonder.. why do people do that.

Relationship; Why do people cheat? Y'know when i was young.. my dream guy was a total different from the guy im with. haha. The guy i wanted.. doesnt really exist. :') How sad but true.

Now, with or without you, i'll be happy.
together or not, im gon' be happy.
call me selfish but you need to prove me wrong.
& before that, im putting my happiness first.
& for trust, gain it back yourself.
i trust neither. & maybe none except for myself.
I no longer can picture us happily together forever but if you really would make up for what u did wrong, maybe you can change my mind. Maybe i can see us walking down the aisle, hand in hand, married tgt forever.
Hope you'll change your stubborn character & grow up when you're in army this 2years. tgt or not, i'll be there for you.
coz i can't possible forget someone who gave me so much to rmb.

Marriage

2011-11-27T22:25:00.002+08:00

Marriage. hmmz... i don't know why i just felt like blogging about it.
Recently i just went to a friend's wedding dinner.
Getting married at a age of 19 (?) yes, cause some don't have a choice.
So many questions in my mind. How do they feel? How do their parents feel?
Will they be able to raise their own child in future? I just wonder.
& i wonder what if i was the one, how would i feel?

I would definitely not want to get married at a age of 19.
Some may think that i am crazy to think about marriage at a age of 17.
I just wonder. Who will my husband be? How will he look like? Tall? Short? Rich? Poor? Fat? Skinny?
I always wonder.
& i would want my wedding to be well planned and grand or nothing at all.
Cause it's only once in a life time. ( let's not talk about divorce and getting married again lol )

& i wouldnt mind not getting married as well.
but sometimes i secretly wish i've got a child. as in.. a child that belongs to me but i didn't give birth to him/her. i just have it. haha!
wouldnt it be fun to teach ur child, play with him/her.
but at times having children might be a hindrance as well.

But if i've got the money and i need to choose to either travel round the world with my love or getting married, i would choose to travel round the world.

Hehehhe. kay, im going to Penang on the 29Nov ! Will be back on the 6Dec ! :D

My little heart cant take so much

2011-11-22T17:33:00.003+08:00

Had long john silver breakfast with yunzhao today. Woke up at 830am. Im so nice. Haahh. <3 her :)

My heart can't take this. Plz end it all. i don't like this feeling. Issit you or issit me?
im mess up. :( i dont deserve anything k.

Virgin Club

2011-11-20T13:59:00.003+08:00

hmm.... so hi, i went to an underage event on 17Nov @ Zirca.
It's was my virgin club experience. hehe. don't laugh at me. x.x
Not as fun as i thought it will be.
kbye :D

Hey you

2011-11-15T14:27:00.001+08:00

"Don't worry, he will miss you. You're the best he could get and he blew it. Don't let him make you think for 1 second that it was your fault. It's not. He screwed up and you did absolutely nothing wrong. You gave him your heart and trusted him to keep it and protect it, but he couldn't. Honestly, he is not mature enough. He is not smart enough. If he was smart, he would have cared for you with every fibre of his being and been with you with every spare second he could but he didn't.
Now he is gone, but don't you cry, sweetie. Don't call him telling him you miss him. Don't message him, don't comment him, don't talk to him, just pretend like you don't care, well, because, you don't. Don't be surprise if he comes crawling back, saying he made a mistake. If you want to go with him again, make him work for you. Don't be his doormat. Don't let him in the first time he rings the bell, make him come back everyday till you trust him enough. If he doesn't come back after a couple of tries, just let him go, but if comes back every single day, trust me, he is worth it."

"It's the worst feeling in the world to love and hate someone all at the same time. & it's hard to watch things change when all you want is for them to stay the same. It's funny but stupid how you want everything and nothing at the same time. It's crazy when you want to let go, but you keep holding on and when you want to move on, you're stuck right where you started. When feelings come and go and you can't decide what you want. When hou have so many things to say but you don't know where to start. When you want them in your life so bad, but all you can do is push them further and further away. It's so hard to think back to how things used to be and look at it now and realise things are different and they may never be the same. You tell yourself it's not worth it but if didn't matter, you wouldn't spend so much time thinking about it."

Strictly pancakes

2011-11-14T16:11:00.005+08:00

Last wednesday went to eat Strictly Pancakes with Andy and Vivien :)
Went for movie with Andy after that. Watched " 2359 ". Scared like 1 dog. x.x LOL.
Homed after that.

Last Friday went to Kpool to meet julia and co. <3 slept my whole saturday afternoon away. Didnt felt like going out but last min went AMK to watch " You're the apple of my eye " with Andy, Vivien and some others.... AWESOME MOVIE. rate 4/5 :D Very funnnnny. Can watch when you're sad. Definitely gon' cheer you up. ^^ Went to Kpool after that with Andy, Vivien & Joshua. homed around 4am. went to do my nails on Sunday @ Nex with Vivien. Took buz with my bro & his friends there. lolol. Painted my toe nails. i wna do my finger nails too! i wna do gelish nails. :o went to changi after that. oklaaaaaaa, im just trying to make this blog post longgg.

BYE

i wish i could speak my mind. i wish i could speak what my heart feels.
if only we could still be the same.
A, i can't forget. i can't forgive.
so afraid to treat you like how i treated you coz im afraid you'll treat me like how you used to treat me.
& i don't know why i just dont wna try anymore. guesss i am tired. i want you yet i dont want.
ok, i want the old you. i want the old us back. & how i wish i never knew what you did, maybe i'd be happier :)
i'd rather allow you to chase after me right now.
see if you'll perservere through it all & make everything alright than have you back and allowing history to repeat itself.
i miss you. & if you're reading this, trust me, i never love any others other than you.

Last Friday Night

2011-11-01T16:17:00.009+08:00

i wish days like this would last forever.

Today 1NOVEMBER2011 ;
FINALLY. Left with 3papers this week :)
Can't wait for this friday.
I wna play i wna have fun i wna do all that i never done before.
hehe ♥ HOPE NOV WILL BE AWESOME!

idontknowwhybutboyimissyou.howdoiforgetyouwhenyougavemesomuchtoremember. butagainhowdoiforgivewhatyouhaddone.ithoughtmaybeineverwillbeabletoforgiveyoucauseyourchangewontbelongitsjusttemporary.ifeelsofreewithoutyou.imightfeellonelyattimesbutimreallyfree.idontwanttobecontrolledanymore.iloveyouiwantyoubackiwishyouneverdidwhatyouhaddone.butatthesametimeidontwanttolosewhatihavenow.iguessidontreallyknowwhatiwantormaybeijustwanttobehappy.

i'll be happy :)

Before & After

2011-10-30T23:39:00.002+08:00

Last year. November
Last year August [ my head look small coz my hair was so thick but my face still fat lah]
This year July
This year July

HAHAHA JUST LOOK AT MY FACE.
& HOW MUCH MY HAIR GREW. LOL

was looking through my pixxx the other day & realise my face used to be so fucking fat.
yea, so fucking fat. not that skinny right now lah. but still got that [ v ] . my face used to be a rectangle k -.- LOL .
hahaahhahahahahahaha.
& i had a difficult time looking for a proper pix. i used to live without make up. & those pictures are horrible :\ hahaha. k bye :b

Here's my life

2011-10-29T12:37:00.003+08:00

Hehehehheehhehehehehe.
English & Maths down! :D
Went for sushi & sheesha with flendds. ♥
shall wait for clawdyy pixxxturessssss.

Pray hard i can get at least a B for my maths. Cause i know my A just flew away. ):

& i need to stop coughing x.x taata! ♥

Moving on

2011-10-25T14:24:00.002+08:00

i knew, i knew if i ever leave you, you'll turn out this way.
To stay & i'll be hurt. To leave & to see you doing the things you once vowed you'll never do. & things that destroys you.
If you're reading this, you need to know. im so disappointed in you. you left me speechless.
& pls, stop whatever you're doing. i care that's why.
See this; if we're meant to be, if you love me enough, one day you will come back to me, proving to me that you're already a changed man. Someone better, someone with bright future, someone who stopped doing all the rubbish for the girl he loves. But if we're not meant to be, if you dont love me, you'll still be the same you. & maybe there will be another you will be changing for. Still, i'll be happy for you. :)

Freeeee

2011-10-25T02:11:00.001+08:00

Crazy flends

caged

2011-10-20T17:20:00.002+08:00

sucks that i can't blog the things i wna blog about.
i feel so trap. i hate feeling so caged. i want to be free, i need to be free.

English 'o'level on monday. i gon' do well. wish me luck and pray for me :D
ALL THE BEST TO EVERYONE WHO IS TAKING THEIR 'O' :D

2639's

2011-10-17T15:30:00.002+08:00

I thought we could go through any obstacles hand in hand.
no matter how many fights and quarrels we had, i thought we will still be staying strong tgt.
i was wrong, so wrong.

Spell Love (ell ohhh veee eee)

2011-10-13T11:47:00.003+08:00

just disappointed

Oh HI

2011-10-06T13:16:00.001+08:00

CANT WAIT TO PARTY AFTER OLVL

less than three

2011-10-01T21:29:00.000+08:00

im so sorry to let you down this time round.

One two three

2011-09-21T12:14:00.001+08:00

Hiiii testing blogger apppp!

how alot of moments didnt last forever

2011-09-20T19:51:00.008+08:00

18 SEPTEMBER 2011 SCAPE FLEA MARKET

16SEPT
RANDOM PIX

SOMEDAY IM GOING TO ALL THIS PLACES
VENICE
ROME
PARIS
NEW YORK
MALDIVE

LONDON

SHALLL BLOG MORE OFTEN. IF ONLY THERE IS A BLOGGER APP ON IPHONE. IT WILL BE MORE THAN AWESOME :D hehehehhehehe

oh hi stalker jasmine :b

K BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEE CANT WAIT FOR OLVL TO END. I AM COUNTING DOWN TO THE LAST PAPER NOT TO THE FIRST PAPER. SO ARD 55 DAYS? HAHAHAHAHAHA. CANT WAIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2 0 1 0

2011-09-12T22:09:00.002+08:00

i miss the second half of 2010.

i hate whatever that is happening. i hate those fucked up things u did to me. i hate those memories that keeps haunting me. i hate it but i couldnt tell u abt it. & sometimes, i hate you. but at the same time i know i'd never love anyone as much as i love you. just don't take me for granted.

& i hope i'd be fine soon.

Goodbye for noww.

F.R.I.E.N.D.S

2011-09-08T23:59:00.000+08:00

hi. i dont feel like blogging abt today's shopping day with the girls cause it was kind of fucked up.

ok shall post up pix tmr or smth :) goodnight.

when there was me and you

2011-09-01T10:19:00.007+08:00

unglam max

GUESS WHAT IS THISS? ^^

i just want my sacrifices to be worth it, baby.

Flends

2011-08-24T12:33:00.010+08:00

2009

2009
2011
2011
2011
2011
2010
2010
2010
2010
2010
2011
2011
2011
2011
2010

my face so FAT.

2011

2011

Looking at my pictures. I had changed so much.
short hair to long hair. braces to no braces. no make up to make up.
haha. & i havent been going out with my friends as much as i used to. miss them.
& i think i change alot. hahahaha. i used to look so nerdyyyyyy.

me

2011-08-21T14:10:00.002+08:00

didi

boyf

happy 17th birthday wenning

2011-08-17T20:52:00.004+08:00

Sunday celebrated wenning's birthday. surprised her ♥ hehe

hearts

2011-08-15T20:36:00.013+08:00

6 August 2011

Happy 46th bday Singapore!

2011-08-09T00:39:00.000+08:00

heheh blog again tmr w more pix

like a broken piece of mirror

2011-08-04T16:08:00.004+08:00

1Aug2011

30Aug2011

29Aug2011

I am still not fine.

Im willing to be the one, the angel that you love.

2011-07-30T14:05:00.002+08:00

I realised, i can't move on. I am stuck, stuck here in our memories.
Crying doesnt seems to help anymore.
I want you back but no. i need to go. unless you're willing, willing to change, unless you're chasing after me if not im leaving. even if it's me standing at the same place, not being able to move on. i miss you, boy.

Goodbye

2011-07-30T00:59:00.001+08:00

I shall start a new this time round. Thanks for all that u had done for me.

Im just a girl,

2011-07-28T19:33:00.003+08:00

Hi. Just feel like blogging with.. nothing.
Every time i get this feeling (idk how to explain this feeling, but it sucks) i just feel like blogging. I don't know why either. but i won't know what to blog about too. haa.
soo... hi & bye :) ♥
I love whoever who is reading. haha. *kisskiss* Lololol.

hypophrenia

2011-07-26T23:55:00.003+08:00

So cutee <3

Can't sleep ): tried to study SS ' population ' but fail. gg to me. chem test tmr too. gg to me. kill mself.

Reminiscing

2011-07-25T22:54:00.003+08:00

1year ago
This was your favourite picture.

One day you are going to miss me chasing you, you're going to miss my annoyance, you're going to miss how much i cared about you. You're going to miss me in general.

just missing how we used to be.

Everything that i am feeling..

2011-07-24T20:24:00.002+08:00

tired.. soso tired. everything just happens over and over again.
yea, like i said, it's like a cycle. i know we cant be back like how we used to be.
yea, i would do anything for us to be back like how we used to be but it will never be the same for you.
All you did was to blame me. You don't listen. I need someone to listen to me when i need to speak. I broke down, i cried.
thanks for all those hurtful words last night. & if your motive was to hurt me, you succeeded. & if you choose to ever leave again, im willing to let go. :)

andyoiezhengjie, if you don't know, you're everything to me. & iloveyou so much.
&all i ever will ask from you is for us to be back like how we used to be, when you love me more.

tadaatadaa.

2011-07-22T23:37:00.001+08:00

supsupsup! when was the last time i hit town!
Yes, town with yunzhao today.!
im not gonna go shop in heels again. 10cm heels. haaaha. after 10hrs of walking, my legs spoil. ok kidding. just hurt alot. i feel so tall leyy! uncomfortable but happy la:x all this while, i wanna be taller!
Legs achinggg. Cut hair. Did manicure, that lady's service was terrible. she is very lousy too. boo.
bought donuts me and yunzhao's favourite donut! pop doh!
had dinner at pontian, fav wantan meee! @Cineleisure.
313 forever 21. if only money falls from the skyyy... haah.
yesyesyes, i had a great time with my fav girl :D hahaha.
tata!

Give me a break,

2011-07-22T09:36:00.002+08:00

I am tired, so damn tired. yep, physically and emotionally.
Seriously i don't know what's wrong with my mum. She can be so damn nice at times then can suddenly turn into some siao lang -.-
damn sick of her. kpkb for nth, accuse for nth. wonder if im her daughter.
& School is so tiring. ending at 830 everyday. I am so exhausted.

okay, look at the bright side, im heading to town with yunzhao later on! :)

still... my life is damn fucked up right now.
problems after problems.

PARTEY

2011-07-18T19:08:00.013+08:00

16JULY2011 SATURDAYY

aiyo so cuteeee. :D

sleep mode

doh rae mi

went to julia house last saturday after school to bake :D Rainbow cake!! ^-^
Had fun baking. Taste awesome except for the icing :o
After that rushed home and prepare & headed to Marina Barrage. Night picnic with julia Ulrika & claudia! & sean!!
I swear it's damn beautiful there at night! The wind, the lights.. can sleep there. Lol :x
im like a happeh girl. haha Awesome saturday :) Love the girlssss!

Friday going out with yz!!

You used to be the guy i wanna marry.

2011-07-14T15:47:00.003+08:00

hello. i am so bored. lazy to study. i shall start mugging this weekend. *promise :) haha! *bullshit* :x

shall do "100 facts abt me". cause i am so bored.

#1. 17 this year. 1year older on 10April.
#2. 1.59m tall.
#3. 42+kg of fats.
#4. i ♥ andy :)
#5. I am very possesive.
#6. I am kind of racist.
#7. I ♥ HelloKitty.
#8. I feel fat. i want to slim down.
#9. I am very, extremely scared of cockroach.
#10. I am afraid that my kid in the future gon' look like a monster. :x
#11. I hate to be lied to.
#12. I don't like myself at times when i feel stupid
#13. I love to eat. & i eat alot when i am bored.
#14. I love BnJ 'Chocolate fudge brownie' my fav ice cream.
#15. I love to watch taiwan and hongkong drama.
#16. I am extremely lazy.
#17. I hate to study but i love maths :)
#18. I am retaking my olvl.
#19. I am aiming for 5points. HAHA or at most 15points.
#20. I love pizza!
#21. I love to bake!!!
#22. I love to make birthday cards.
#23. I love to put on make up.
#24. I hate to pespire.
#25. I hate to wait.
#26. I love to curse and swear at sluts -'-
#27. I want to travel round Europe with my love. (A promised we made.)
#28. I love to sleep
#29. I secretly like some guy in a drama. HAHA
#30. I think my 17th birthday was the worst bday.
#31. My 16th birthday was the best :)
#32. I don't mind going for plastic surgery but i am scared. haa. (i'd do a nose job)
#33. I want a tattoo on.. somewhere near my collar bone.
#34. I love to sleep right after i eat :x
#35. I like to smell my bf. HAHA. he smells like a baby.
#36. I've got a good memory.
#37. I want to go for dancing lessons after olvl.
#38. I've work before once. & i knew a few friends :D
#39. I love pink.
#40. I only love to blog when i got pictures. ( that means when i go out)
i've been so lifeless this few weeks ):

shall do a '40facts abt me' instead of 100. Shall do the other 60 another time :)
tata!

You're my favourite

2011-07-13T22:26:00.002+08:00

School school school. I don't have any life. ):
lessons-remedial-night studies. yes, everyday.
Gonna reach home at 9pm everyday.
Can tired untill die.
haa.. attending night studies = i don't eat dinner.
Can lose weight. Lololol.

Can't wait for saturday! meeting the girlsssss ♥ so long since we met up. mizzz them.
bye shall blog when i got pix. ♥

ME

2011-06-29T22:19:00.003+08:00

Don't wanna study. Just wanna enjoy myself.
Don't wanna think or do anything. Im just so tired.

Back to school

2011-06-26T23:13:00.002+08:00

School tmr & i can't get to sleep. Having slight fever now. Suay or what? School tmr and im having fever. ahhh. fuck. Goodnight.

wink

2011-06-24T22:20:00.002+08:00

haha i cannot wink.

went out with YunZhao on 22June,Wednesday. :D went to parkway, had Toby's.
bored and did that 'painting' don't know what it is called. :D
we planned to study but failed. Haha!

school starting in 2days. & itsucks ): wish holiday last forever.
i need to study mad hard for me olvl. me getting 5points! A A A A A !

Last Journey,

2011-06-21T23:05:00.003+08:00

arghhh, tried to upload other photos zillion times but cant.
shall upload others another time.

Goodbye my Dearest Grandfather.
It's true that we only want to cherish, realise what we took for granted and miss that thing or person when it's/they're gone. It's so true.
I might not be very close to my grandfather but it still hurts to see someone important in your family leave. It's so heartwrenching.
My first time attending a funeral of someone that is blood-related.
I still couldnt accept that you left at first. When you're discharged from hospital i never even managed to visit you. I felt bad, i didnt even get to see you.
& Never did i know when i see you at ur coffin, i cried.
AhGong, i hope you get your house, your car, your money. I hope you'll live well at the other world. Go stay together with ahpek, laoma... Please, look after ahma, give her goodhealth and look after all of us. That's all i said when i was praying to you. We'll miss you, my ahgong :') ♥

Family should meet up and gather more often. Bond alot with my family the past 5days.

Love you guys :)

Hey Friend!

2011-06-16T16:12:00.004+08:00

Have been meeting HanRu the past 3 days :D
Monday went to watch Insidious. Fucking scary, swear. :o
Yesterday went to cine to watch X-men and Ladda Land.
Xmen sucks. i don't understand the story at all :x Ladda Land, story line is so boriingggg :o
Pirates of the Carribean came out for so long alr yet i still havent watch it. I want watch ):
I want watch Hangover 2 too!
Can't wait to be 18 next year. I don't feel 17+ at all. HAHA i still feel like 16. haha ;x

Boy, stay if only you think you can treat me better. If not im leaving. I made this decision, i know it will be painful but i don't want to be hurt again and again.

only you

2011-06-12T03:36:00.005+08:00

They asked: 'why do you still love him so much? he aint good to you.'
but no one ever know.. how nice you used to treat me. all the good memories you gave me. everything, once upon a time. i still want those back.

They said you ruin my life, they say i am not the girl they used to know, they said i i aint as cheerful as before anymore.
I smiled and said, im still the same, im still cheerful, im still the girl they know but deep down i know it myself.

Every lil' things u does affect me. & do you know it just takes a hug from you to make me feel better.

what exactly went wrong?

Just like us, going crazeh in this r/s

2011-06-11T15:30:00.001+08:00

Randomly clicking on MV & came to this MV. Feels so much like us.

why

2011-06-10T01:04:00.000+08:00

Fucked up blogger cant post other pictures. -.-
met YunZhao at Tampinese. After that, mum and dad came. Got me iphone4 white & hsh :D

eioydna

2011-06-09T18:00:00.003+08:00

Looking at my pix and videos...... i miss us.

You

2011-06-08T23:40:00.001+08:00

I’ll back off so you can live
Say it directly, looking at me
Say it looking into my eyes
Did you just say you wanted to break up?
Did you want to end it with me?

(I Know) You probably got a lady
(I Know) You probably got sick of me
Even though the tears are rushing to me

I’ll back off so you can live
That is all I can say
I’ll forget you so you can live better
So that you’ll be happy without me
The love that you tossed away, you can take it
Don’t even leave a trace behind and take it all
Don’t even say you’re sorry
Don’t worry about me

Your lips that told me tha you were going to leave
Why does it give me a reason to be angry today?
I need to stop you, the words don’t go out
And you are already moving far apart

(I know) You will forget me
(I know) I will really hate you
Even though you know everything

You! The reason I lived
You! Were all I wanted
You! It was me who only looked at you

Why? Why are you leaving?
Why? Why are you tossing me away?
If you were going to be like this
Why did you love me in the first place?

Do you happen to remember that day?
That day when we first met
I still remember it
The promise you made to me
That you will only care for me
That you will only protect me
That you will only love me
I believed your lies, I believed it

Did you really love me?
I’ll forget you so you can live better
Goodbye

some korean song lyrics. Translate it to english.

my heart

2011-06-07T20:22:00.009+08:00

Birthday boyyyyy :D

i look so tall and big here -.-

HAHAHAHA

June 4 2011 Went to Turf City, SteamBoat BBQ. Celebrate Daryl's birthday. 1day in advance :D
Had fun with the girls. So long since we last met up :)

So much i wanna rant. My heart can't take this.
I guess maybe life would get better without you but how do i let you go.
You never know, almost everything you does now.... is just hurting me.

19th

2011-06-05T21:53:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY DARYL NEO!!!!!!!!

Shall post the bbq steamboat pixxx sooon :)

GIRLSZX

2011-06-03T23:03:00.006+08:00

2June2011

Town with Hanru Angying and Mich!
Have been meeting them the whole of this week! ♥♥♥
went bugis on tues with HanRu to find AngYing.
Bugis again on Wed with Hanru and Mich to find AngYing.
Town yesterday.
Moive, Kungfu Panda 2 at The Cathay with AngYing and HanRu ♥ YYAYY !!

i hate you :)

2011-05-31T20:46:00.000+08:00

Going insane.

MT paper 2 damn screwed.

Don't do that

2011-05-25T14:51:00.002+08:00

HI. I DONT FEEL LIKE BLOGGING ANYMORE.
MY LIFE IS SO BORING. EVERYTHING SO FUCKED UP.
R/S FAMILY OLVL ALL SO FUCKED UP.

I PRAY THAT MY AHGONG WILL GET WELL SOON.! ♥

BYE FOR NOW. BACK AFTER MT OLVL. :)

Life

2011-05-20T00:47:00.001+08:00

Hiiiiii. My pimple is killing me. ok, more like a tumor ):
Pain Pain Pain Pain !!!

Asshole

2011-05-15T11:11:00.003+08:00

I don't understand wth you're trying to do to me.
It's only when a guy comes around, you go crazy. You'll want me to stop contacting the guy or to the extend of wanting me to scold the guy or u wanna beat that guy. I don't know wtf you want from me. You think it's alright for you to talk to girls and stuff but you go crazy when i talk to guys.
You neglect me, someone treats me better, then you go crazy?
Yet, i forgive you every single time. Isn't it enough? But the cycle just repeat itself.
You apologise, thn again, your fucking flirting disease comes back and you start again.
No matter how much i love you, remember, there is a limit.
& i can tell you this, i can't take it anymore.

2011-05-12T14:56:00.000+08:00

Sometime you guys gotta learn to understand girls's heart. When they say no, it means yes. Don't want, it means want. When they argued with you on the streets & walked away, they actually want to see if you'll chase them back and hold their hand. When they throw tantrum, they just want you to understand them more. They didn't mean to check your phone, they just wish that all the girls around you are all fat/ugly.

Changes

2011-05-09T11:46:00.002+08:00

6MAY2011

Met juria 4 sheesha. ok, guess what? we shee sha 3times that night. :o haha!

met her the nxt day after going to church w yuwen, jingwen and co.

went to her house and headed to kpool! :D

yay headache weathe fucking hot!!! ._.

i will be happy everyday. :)

you and me

2011-05-04T19:28:00.001+08:00

Trust is the biggest problem between us now.
Without trust, there is no way we can make it, there is no way we'll be back tgt again.

Top of the world

2011-05-01T18:31:00.004+08:00

30APRIL2011

23APRIL2011

Happy belated bday xiaoka! ♥

Life is good. :D Having my MYE yet im not studying at all. Awesome yea? but i dont wanna flunk my olvl again. i need motivation i need to wake up. omg.

hehehe shall blog when i got more pixxxxxxxx.

Good Friday

2011-04-27T15:15:00.006+08:00

Yuwen Jingwen Wenning Joanne Jiahui Bryan Zhenglun
How i spend my good friday. Service at CHC. saw those ppl which i didnt see for like.. 2yrs? hah
miss my friends ♥ love them! haaaa.

today suppose to be a special day.. but it's just another ordinary day for us now. ~~23rd.~~

B F F

2011-04-17T13:59:00.016+08:00

17APRIL2011 glowing necklace HAHA

pix spam met the girls last min @ town thn headed to pp for sogurt! ;D

baby, imissyou.

mygirls

2011-04-17T00:05:00.012+08:00

10APRIL2011 17TH other pixxx with claudia! 17th yet.. wasnt a good day. ohwell, forget it.
9APRIL2011 8APRIL2011 6APRIL2011

Claudia's Bday

2011-04-13T19:40:00.007+08:00

5APRIL2011 epic

OK THAT'S ALL. MY BDAY AND OTHER PICS WILL BE UP SOON

when you tell me that you love me

2011-04-08T23:33:00.002+08:00

shall post up pictures on claudia's birthday, shopping with hanru and mich, kpool with flends sooon! :D

My dearest boy,

2011-04-06T22:44:00.007+08:00

Do you still remember? All that we had gone through, all the memories. I am the one who chose to let go yet i can't move on. I miss you baby. I love you, i am sure you know. I chose to leave because you're hurting me too much. Im sorry. I want you back so badly yet i am afraid of another heartache. I hope we can talk things out but it seems like we can't. I love you, i gave you my all but it feels like you never appreciate me before. I don't want to leave but yet i chose to left already. Baby, hold me back, tell me you will treat me better. Tell me you still want me.

Life's great

2011-04-04T15:16:00.003+08:00

3APRIL2011 SUNDAY went out with mich ^^ shopping. slack. neoprints. pictures. heheeh ♥ 1APRIL2011 FRIDAY

went out with claudia. Ulrika came too ♥

yay.

Screw you, bitch

2011-03-29T16:27:00.002+08:00

That's what you get for being over confident, slut. Hope you die soon :) FUCK OFF.

March Holiday

2011-03-26T11:55:00.006+08:00

18March2011 Friday

monopoly @ julia's house. suppose to go sentosa or ecp. end up slacking at her house. watched Big Mommas with Julia, Daryl, Kelly & Aunty Helen :) Sheeshaa after that. Girls out afterthat. sheeshaa slack talk. reached home around 4am.

17March2011 Thursday

Played dai ti with 'majong tiles'. slack at julia's place. hehe.

16March2010 Wednesday

Lunch w claudia @ simei :)

15March2011 Tuesday

Ikea with YunZhao & Mayying :)

Thanks for being there when i needed someone most. Love you girlsss :) ♥

if ever we still get back tgt, still rmb? so much things we said we're gonna do. So much, so much.

Leaving

2011-03-23T10:47:00.002+08:00

Wanted to post our pictures up here but i can't do it. Once i see our pictures, tears just flows. My heart just ache. So many memories, all gone just because of some stupid mistake we did. iloveyou,~~baby~~ Andy. I gave you everything i had. i gave you my heart but we're ending here. I can't take this, i can't take another heartache. I don't feel like me anymore. You let me down, you disappoint me. My heart broke. I feel the pain, so unbearable. I would give up anything for you but you wouldn't do the same. Goodbye my love, im moving on. I love you so much but i am leaving.

say hello to goodbye

2011-03-19T15:35:00.001+08:00

She is not getting you. Im getting you back, baby.

500th post

2011-03-18T13:30:00.003+08:00

March is a lousy month. Thought things would be great. well.. it didn't.
you left, you left me.
Promises, future all perished. False hope.

do you miss how the world was spinning for us?

2011-03-10T19:46:00.003+08:00

new friend :)

♥

hiii. things aint great this week. :\

Baby's ahgong passed away. May he rest in peace. ♥

Not very close with him but i still feel sad and misses him abit. ):

havent met baby for 2days ): only met him on mon and tues for half hour only.

great. so i can say i havent meet him for 4days. miss him like mad ):

MARCH HOLIDAY HEHEHEHEHEHE ♥

Don't Cry, Hold On, Embrace

2011-03-01T15:00:00.014+08:00

27Feb2011

babybaby so cute! 1month only
keke. like my baby. hehe

happy 21st babyboy, iloveyou more than anyone would. went to my uncle's baby's 1st month @ SengKang. cab to Cine with baby and his sis. BFF & Gongcha! Bugis after that 4 sheesha. ok i think i will die early.HAHA!

25feb2011

nights out with the girls and.. daryl don. hehehe ♥ the girls
Cutieboy, loveyou. Dont ever leave, tell me you'll stay forever. stay over baby house after chilling with the girls :)

20feb2011

had Just Acia with baby thn headed to Cathay to watch 127hours. fucking gross. hah!

Everytime i thought i was strong enough to let go... i will always end up running back to you.
Baby, stay forever will you?

Disappointment

2011-02-22T11:20:00.009+08:00

met claudia last week @ town for best flies forever @ cine. + GongCha ♥ hehe
my SIAN life is back -_- study school study school -.-
can't wait to go to poly hehe. gonna do well this yr top student me okie HAHA

I waiting for the day when you will change. I really am.
I am tired of you making me feel like shit, so unimportant you,not significant at all,you choose others over me. Even typing this makes me feel like shit. S.H.I.T!
I am so disappointed but i am staying strong. I won't cry, not anymore. I will silent when something happens. I am not going to quarrel, not anymore cause im tired already. You wont listen anymore. To you i am irritating, a slut, a bitch. & All your vulgarities that i can't tolerate anymore. Baby, i don't wanna leave but if i have to, i will. I believe i deserve better. & whatever you're doing is just pushing me away.

Y O U

2011-02-18T20:53:00.001+08:00

gave up, too disappointed. :')

i wonder why

2011-02-15T16:22:00.017+08:00

14feb2011 happy v day!! ♥

hahaha i cannot squat .

♥

13FEB2011

burberry 4 baby :)

12/13feb! night out!

i look fucking ugly when im red. kind of drunk that night -.-

HAHAHA I LOOK SO WHITE AFTER IM AWAKE!!

12FEB2011

this boy love his tattoo. -.-

Hi! My school started. Yes, im going back to the loser school. Bedok North. Seriously, should had work harder. Cause i never wanted to go into ITE. i wanted to go private yet my parents want me to go back to school. I've got no choice yeah.
2011 havent been good. Yea of cause there are good times with my babyboy, friends and stuff like funny video that make me laugh for god knows how long. ok now i think of alvin falling into the bush that makes me julia and yunzhao laugh for weeks. but years after we're still laughing about it.
sometimes i just miss the past so badly. Time with the girls slacking my life away. Shopping with the girls.
we need to move on. i wanna go poly and make new friends. i must study hard this year. i mean seriously. i know i've been saying that for don't know how many years but yes this time im serious. i dont want to retake olevel again and again. i dont wanna go ite i want cool friends at poly! :D
It hasnt been good for me and babyboy. Things have been really bad. We've been quarrelling alot. This really stresses me. We used to be so sweet, what happened? Sometimes i wonder. You no longer care about me? you dont love me enough? you dont love me anymore? Baby you know i love you, i love you so much but im getting tired. Tired when i think of things that i used to believe slowly perishing. When people said this and that about you when you aint around. i beg to differ. Now words you say left me speechless. Sometimes i hope you hear me. I hate the way you treat me now, getting pekcek with me easily, you gave me attitude,vulgarities, names you called (hurt the most). You don't do that to me. Things you twit. Everything was so hurtful, you don't know. Every single time i think of those it kills me inside out then tears gonna starting falling. I know you hated it when i cry but i hope you know you can't expect me to stop when it just falls uncontrollably. I know times when im unreasonable i know i have my bad too i know im not perfect but at times i really hope you can be my perfect boyfriend. hah!
I don't know if this is you or you've changed. Sometimes i dont regconise you. I miss the you, the andy few months back. The one who cares, tells me everything, love me, would give in no matter what, so understanding, never gonna hurl vulagrities, scold me, threaten me, walk away, ignore me, misunderstand me, scold me on twitter (hah!) ... the one that treated me like im a princess. I must admit i've changed too. Now that i want to know more. Maybe to you i care too much or maybe i really do. Cause you know, just a girl talking to you can make me feel so insecure. What more if you dont tell me anything? I gonna ask.. thn you gonna find me irritating. yes thn we gonna quarrel.
sigh. i hope we can be back to how we used to be like. i miss that us you know..

Back to December

2011-02-07T13:19:00.009+08:00

6feb2011 sheeshaa with baby, kh & sandy!

♥ love my baby boy.

4feb! 'CHU 2' happy chinese new year

daddyy ^^ ♥ and cousin
mummy ^^ ♥

sexy leg HAHAHA

Baby's cousin!
lorry to my uncle's house at bukit batok! Lorry back home again. Cab to Baby's ahma house thn watched 'Homecoming' at Marina Square! After movie went to 'chun dao he pan' (??) i think. played 'top gun'. scary like fuck. worst than Genting 'Space Shot' ! i was shivering after that. guess what.. reached home and i got a fever. HAHA ok damn loser.

Last night got fever. baby woke up to takecare of me even tho he got school. ♥♥♥

sometimes, i miss holidays so much..
ok, im still having my holiday.
yes, it's baby. hate him having to go school miss the holiday when we're always out tgt.
don't like his slutty school friends ._.
always ask him out to drink, stay @ hotel blah blah blah. -.-
smlj -'-

BYE ME IS SICK. IM GOING TO REST! :)

because of you

2011-02-04T03:20:00.011+08:00

New year eve!!!!!

Went 4 baby's reunion dinner on the 2feb, cny eve. Did my nails @ fareast while waiting 4 him to end school. met 4 lunch thn headed to his house. :)

31January!!! Town with yunzhao ^^

met yunzhao after her school thn headed to dhoby ghaut thn went to cine and 313 ^^ shopping. ♥

so much to say... but you'll never listen.

no words can explain all this.. you never understand. you never try to.

everything is always so.. one-sided. im tired.

i still remember..

2011-01-27T23:42:00.004+08:00

happy 20th my love. Although today is the worst monthsary, i still love you.
Maybe after tonight everything will change, i will still love you.
i wish i hope we're still like how we used to be during the holiday but things and people change over time. Whatever it is i hope we will still be good, my dear.

i dyed my hair on 25jan, tues and went to thread my brow with yunzhao ^^
im so tired now. goodnight.

apple ♥

2011-01-22T23:03:00.002+08:00

i love my apple meowmeow ♥♥♥♥♥♥

Hi! i've been working. so busy and tired. Gonna stop work on wednesday. 26th!
cant wait to go out with baby and im always missing out when my friends are all meeting up. sighsigh. can't wait to see them! tired eyes, work tmr!

GOOODNIGHTS!! ♥

2011-01-19T11:57:00.004+08:00

updated**!!

Just transfer pictures in my phone to my com!
i didnt mention that last friday, baby and i had a big gigantic burger with his mentor at illuma, empire state. 3 person cant even finish the burgerrr! yummmyyyzsx! hehe.

julia's birthday at Han River! :D very late for this but better than never :)

had been working the pass 2days standing for 10hours. mad tired. dont feel like working already :O only can meet baby at night. sian. off today! :) gonna rest :)

2011-01-12T10:41:00.003+08:00

was waiting for julia's bday pictures(7jan) b4 i bloggggg. but ulrika aint online!
so decided to blog abt the day me baby yunzhao and edmund had steamboat together :D

went to town with my family and baby yesterday ♥
shopping ! whoop :D

my olevel result is just so disappointing. well, im retaking.

bye.

when a heart break, it don't break even.

2011-01-09T22:08:00.001+08:00

im so excited and nervous for tmr.

im so sad so angry so disappointed.