Hatred

Ever had the feeling of hating someone so much? Even their name irritates you?
Even when you tried not to. & act as if nothing had happened, yet you still couldn't bring yourself not to hate them.
Ever had that feeling of not wanting someone yet you doesn't want them to have anyone else as well?
Ever tried to forgive someone yet you can't even forget what they had done?
And.. have you ever wonder.. if you can forgive, without forgetting.
Ever wanted to had revenge on someone who hurt you so badly?

Yet you love them too much to hurt them as well...

& how they claimed that they regretted, & would want to spend the rest of their life with you..

yet that's not what you feel anymore. Coz you gave your all yet what you get back was hurt, tears & a broken heart. You're afraid & you don't wan try anymore.. yet you can't let go.

& a lil' faith keeps hanging on. & a part of you thought that.. " maybe this time it will all work out "

& till a point.. all you want is to be happy. ( how sad is it ) you don't wan care anymore, you just want to be happy. with them or without them, you just wna live every single day happily.

Doing things that you love and being with friends who love you, be there for you, cheer you up, do crazy thing with you.

i just need to know if someone is with me.... cause it hurts so bad to not know what to do.

to give up or to hold on. & not know if their sweetness, love, care are real or not.